Knowing When to Hold On and When to Let Go

Pin It We all have things we want and need in life. Identifying our wants and needs is a good thing, because it means we are always striving towards better things...always seeking out a happier life for ourselves.

But ultimately where does this leave us in the end if these wants and needs don't happen {or take longer than we desire}?? We are left with wants and needs, simply unmet. Unmet wants and needs can lead to feelings of hurt, anger, helplessness and sometimes obsessive behaviors.

Wants and needs are such a catch-22. We all should have them, but if or when our desires aren't being met...then what? Do we just give up? Tell ourselves that we no longer want or need "these things?" The answer is...well...yes. It's one of the harsh ironies of life that no matter how hard we attempt, push, fight, and even obsess over our wants and needs...sometimes we simply must let them go. When the pain of desiring our wants and needs outweighs the benefits of continuing to want them...it's time to simply give up.

Now, giving up isn't as simple as it may sound. Why would you want to give up on something you're certain will make you a happier, more content person?? The answer is, because if you don't give up...eventually you'll drive yourself crazy. After all, the definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results." You can't keep staying on the same cyclical path...going round and round, and expect it to just finally happen. Yes, it still may...but why not learn to be happy without it.

I've always been someone who has known what they wanted and needed. Even at a young age, my parents told me how relentless I was regarding something I wanted or needed. Now, wanting my belly button pierced at 14 and wanting a tattoo at 15 is very different than needing something in your life...perhaps more intangible or external that is less out of your control {although I did end up getting my belly button pierced at 15 and got my first tattoo at 16...see? Told you...relentless.}

I've also been this way towards friends, family, and relationships. I couldn't make a person be loyal to me if they choose not to be, I couldn't control my families dysfunctionalities and I couldn't control being treated poorly by significant others. I simply could only control my own desires within these relationships.

As I've gotten older, my desires for certain things in my life have only continued to grow. I know I want to be a wife and a stay at home mom...I know these things. But when these things continue to not happen, I only am left with frustration, sadness, and an overall hopelessness.

I obsess, crave, and almost morn over desires that simply aren't being met right now. The more I hope for something and the more I don't get what I hope for, the more unhappy I get. It's a vicious cycle that too often I find myself getting caught in.

Letting go is the only option to find some peace of mind when our wants and needs aren't being met. But the ironies of life always seem to prevail. That the only way to get what you desire is to simply let go.

Letting go is part of what we must do to get what we desire!

skydiving two years ago. complete and utter freedom. letting go was the only thing i could do....

Girl Crush

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I officially have a new girl crush...

And her name is Kate Upton.

She became famous by her Sport's Illustrated cover last year...

and ever since then, she's been on fire!

I love her look and her curvaceous body. 

She just exudes hot and sexy.

It's nice to see someone who's not stick skinny on the front of the hottest magazines around.

After all, men don't like women who look like 12 year old boys {it's sad because us women feel we need to look like that just because that's the "standard" in society}

So women... embrace your boobies, your hips, and your booty. It's what makes you a WOMAN!

Here's some photos of this phenomenally beautiful woman, Kate Upton...

Power Water

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I've mentioned previously with my frusteration with my body and fitness routine. I've always always been a very active person {involved in nearly every sport growing up}but for some reason or the other, over the past year... it all went to hell.

Ever since starting up softball in May though, I've gotten that health and fitness itch that I've been missing! I've been going on a lot more walk with the pups, going for runs in the morning before work {and sometimes after as well} and doing at least 300 ab workouts a day {I've always had a strong stomach and at one point could easily do over 1,000 sit-ups...I'll get there soon!}

I'm back to craving the feeling of pushing myself and feeling that "burn" after a workout!   

 Now that I'm pushing myself again, I've been eating healthier and drinking a lot more water. I love water. It is by far my favorite drink. Throw in a lemon wedge {or two} and I'm seriously the happiest lady. But I've realized that I haven't been drinking as much water as I "should" have be. So when I stumbled upon the blog {Second Floor Living}, where she shared a post about this delcious sounding water... I was super pumped!

A Russian website {Sitnoseckano} shared this delicous recipe that I'll try out tonight!

Looks good doesn't it?

Here's what you'll need:

• 2 liters of water
• 1 medium cucumber, peeled and thinly sliced
• 1 lemon, thinly sliced
• 1 teaspoon freshly grated giner
• 10-12 spearmint leaves

Mix all the ingredients in a jug and leave in the fridge for a few hours or overnight. Quick and easy!

According to the website, the properities in the drink help you lose weight. I don't know if I necessarily believe that, but I love water and I love all the ingredients....so regardless, it sounds refreshing and delicious!



Shape Up

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Recently my friend told me about Lauren Conrad's website 

which shares her Bikini Boot Camp Plan and I thought I should give it a shot!

I've been...well...lazy. The word lazy never was a word used in my vocabulary until about a year ago. For some reason I lost a lot of motivation to keep up on my fitness and eating right (I still overall eat pretty healthy but it's definitely taken a turn for the worse) And I'm sick of complaining about how I feel about myself but not doing anything about it.

 Andrew has recently started eating healthier and wants to lose some weight and just feel better overall. Yesterday when we were driving home from Wisconsin, I was bitching venting to Andrew about the way I look and how unhappy I am about the whole thing. So, since we both want to just be a little better version of ourselves, we decided, why not do it together. It's always harder to do it by yourself after all.

I also got a call about two weeks ago from my old model and talent agency that I was a part of when I first moved to the cities. My photos on the website are my headshots from when I was 18 so they are obviously outdated, so I was surprised when I got a call. Long story short, I guess a client wanted me for a photo shoot, and I would have been able to keep the photos for my own portfolio to update my old ones. Well insecure me turned it down because of how I feel. I told Andrew about this and of course he thought I was crazy...but he said maybe if I started it back up again, it would be a great confidence boost, and also a great motivation for me to stick with staying fit and eating healthy.

So here's to being happier in my own skin!