Relishing in the Unknown

Pin It I'm one of those people that could be coined as somewhat of a "control freak." I want to know what's going on around me and don't deal with the "what ifs" of life very easily. The problem with this behavior is that life is full of unknowns. This is both a blessing and a curse. Life is full of uncertainties, because life itself isn't a guarantee. We have no control over how long we have left on this earth. But that's what makes everything so exciting...and at times, a bit scary.

I often find myself cringing at sayings like, "live everyday as if it were your last", "live everyday to the fullest", "live everyday like it's your birthday." (okay, I actually really dig the last quote) Anyway, you get the point. The reason for my quasi pessimistic attitude is that I sit and think...really, no really...I'm capable of living every day of my life like it were my last? Because let's be honest, I wouldn't be waking up at the crack of dawn, working the majority of the day, not being able to see my loved ones, and most likely not appreciating the blessings that I do have. But I got to thinking about this whole theory of living every day - letting go of the bull shit, embracing the life that I do have, and stop worrying so damn much about what I can't control... and here's what I've come up with thus far...

Sometimes life does just suck. You know, like really suck. That's life. And there's an endless amount of events and occurrences that happen throughout our days that are completely and utterly out of our control. But, there's also a sense of relief in not being in control of every aspect of our lives, because it's what guides and shapes us each and every day. There's so much of life that is unknown - so much that's ambiguous, scary, and exciting all at the same time. And maybe the best way to enjoy what we can control, is relishing in the unknown...wholeheartedly embrace the complete and undeniable inability to know it all.

It's easier said than done, trust me I know. But it's something I am attempting to strive for from this day forward. I must take responsibility for what I can control, but accept the inevitable that I simply can't control everything. I can't and won't ever know it all or have all the answers to my questions. The best I can do is.... wake up each morning, take a deep breath of a new day, embrace what I can control, and let go of what I cannot.

And sometimes, just sometimes.... all I need to do is just take a giant leap of faith....